[12 Apr 2004|03:51pm] i have a new journal.  probably wont write in it very often but add me to your friends list if you want.  its horny_horny yeah, it describes me dont you think? (2) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[29 Mar 2004|04:06pm] i am so boring.. just like this fucking livejournal... im completely done. everyone here is so fucking mean and judgemental, i dont understand why people get satisfaction from making others feel like shit. bye. forever. (4) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[29 Mar 2004|07:58am] im home. its nice. only apostrophies and commas

[15 Mar 2004|07:40pm] yeah so this sucks. my boyfriend is choosing other peoples sides over mine. congratulations amber.. youve got eddie against me now. and he was the only person who was ever on my side. fuck all of this. im so scared now. he actually hung up on me today.. that NEVER happens. ive lost my best friend, and now im about to lose my boyfriend.. god i might as well go die. im leaving for California on friday morning.. so maybe that will help things get settled. i dont know why this is so hard for me... (4) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[08 Mar 2004|05:25pm] emotional eruption no recollection. I can't fathom my life, theres no connection. my source is untrue, although i accuse it. theres so much i can do, but i can't seem to use it. theres a dark empty hole inside of my heart sometimes it makes me start falling apart. theres times i can't help it, and i start to cry i swallow my pride and try to get by. my vision is blurry, the world becomes dim i cant be alone, i can't be without him. in fear of lonliness, i consume what i can. its hard depending on one, single man. when it comes to being happy... sometimes thats the case, but mostly its sadness and solemn of face. So i breathe him in, as my source of hope im like a victim, and he is the rope. if im drownding in water that could consume my life. i know he will be there, to grab onto, in strife. a rope is a tool used in life and in death, and although it could kill me,  it could save my breath. (4) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[26 Feb 2004|07:28am] i should be showering right now, but im not going to shower today, i shall be dirty. anyway.. this week has been odd, good and bad. umm. i think it was monday that tanya fell on me and broke my plug. that pissed me off, then she told me how annoying i was or something ( im not talking shit, im just saying the facts). anyway.. then amber and i keep on getting in fights, im not sure why, but i guess im getting on her nerves.. figures, im kind of annoying like that. tuesday night eddie called me, and we talked and i kept on getting depressed, and it was pissing me off, so eventually i started bawling on the phone and he didnt know what to do, and it was awful. yesterday during drama, which i was dredding to go to because i dont have any friends in that class, i also feel like a retard, because i cant act.. anyway.. kelsey buck, who is a junior, and very sweet, is my scene partner, and we ended up talking for almost the whole period about our lives, and our boyfriends, and everything, and honestly, it was soo wonderful having someone listen to me, and actually want to hear what i say, because when i talk to any of my friends, all i do is irritate them, and it kills me , and makes me wonder why they are my friend. last night was the first night in a long time, that i was with eddie in his room. yipee. today is a b day along with tomorrow, that means i have french YAY. i hate artificial hormones, it really fucks with you. (1) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[22 Feb 2004|09:18am] Step 1: Open Winamp, or whatever mp3 player you use. Step 2: Put all of your music on random. Step 3: Write down the first ten songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing. 1.my funny valentine - frank sinatra 2.Counting the days - Goldfinger 3.Im all out of love - Air supply 4.Teen Idol - RX bandits 5.Suck my dick -lil' kim 6.Piano song - the starting line 7.Die Die my darling - the misfits 8.Goodbye - save ferris 9.the good fight - dashboard confessional 10.Niggers - Blink 182 wow. its funny, how i barely ever listen to any of that stuff. only apostrophies and commas

[19 Feb 2004|05:24pm] so i just got home from the audition at school. i find it pretty pathetic how much i suck. i wish i had a genie... i have three wishes, and i think that if they were granted, i wouldnt cry as much. or maybe im wrong, but i can dream. god. there is something positively wrong with me. (1) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[17 Feb 2004|10:47pm] so im happy again. i dont know what happened, all i know is, that i watched gilmore girls, and realized that life isnt worth crying over... eddie is really perfect, and i take him for granted. so i loveeeeeeeeeeeee orgasms. i just thought i would let everyone know that. good wholesome information. im in the mood for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. french test tomorrow. im gonna kick ass! (3) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

[16 Feb 2004|09:49pm] i dont even know what to say anymore. im hate crying and i just hate the person i am. its so fucking sad, when your boyfriend, the person you love so dearly, calls you, or, you call him, and you guys have nothing at all to say. NOTHING. heres the conversation: eddie: isabeauuuuuu... Izzy: yes? eddie: mmmmm. and that just goes on and on and on, in between me bitching to myself about something, and him talking about his FUCKING mini bike, uhhhh.. fuck! (2) when you look that good pictures are only apostrophies and commas

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